A Sadness Within

In one of my recent blogs, I quoted my dad in saying that with good, there follows the bad. We learn from each, in our life, as I see it. Our little Hank Jr. was born into the family just a few weeks ago. So new, sweet and innocent, is the good. There will be his challenges in growing up in our world of turmoil, war, etc.

We are now going through our bad, with Bill's Uncle David dying of Cancer. David has been in battle with this demon, for more than 2 years. He has been through many treatments on Chemo and radiation. Has lost lots of weight and energy. Through all this, he has been very stoik. David is a man of much strength. A hard working man, all of his life. A very gentle man, as I have known him for more than 25 years. If you were to meet and be around him for any amount of time, he would make you laugh. There was a sparkle in his eyes, just before he struck you with his funny thoughts. He was a quite man, as well. You could see that his family meant the world to him.

David is in a nursing home, at this time. He is in much pain, and for me to hear this, is painful for me, as he only deserves the best. His wife is in his room, next to him for his comfort. Sarah and David have been married for over 40 years. A love between the two of them, is a love for all to have. So, with this, we are saddened and just in hope that David is kept without pain, in his lasting days/months?!

The good in this bad, is that David has been in my life and shared many things of wisdom and strength...and with this I have been blessed. We wonder why we lose special people in our life and it seems too soon for us and them...but, that is one thing we all are sure of...Death, another reminder from my father, of wisdom....that we are certain of and "all" have in common.

I am happy to share with you all, a man that is much loved!

Love you, David....

A New Challenge...

Well, something new for me...starting a Pilates Class. Yolanda, a good friend of mine talked with me about the next class; as she had attended one and said it may help my back. With Pilates; a core strengthener, is the goal.

I was very interested in anything that would help my back. As if you know me, I have had 2 back surgeries and I am worse with the last one. I try to think positive, but the pain is constant and a reminder everyday. I wake up with severe pain and it does ease during the day, but then as I get ready for bed, the pain is back again.

I payed my dues, looking forward to a new challenge. I gathered my mat and comfortable clothing and off I went. I get tickled with the names of the exercises...like, "The Dead Bug", on our backs and arms and legs straight up in the air, trying to breathe with ease, while strengthening our core. " Scissors" is another one that makes me laugh. On our backs again and, with legs in the air and trying to vision cutting paper. The one that tickles me the most...we are once again on our backs. Hands are behind our neck, legs are in the position of getting ready to give labor....that's what my mind brings to me. I know, strange, but it does get me through the exercises. Unfortunately, I'm not sure that Pilates is for me. In my last session, I can't remember the exercise that has locked my back with more and different pain, but with the new pain, I don't think I will be going again. I was so hoping this was for me.

I have adjusted to my daily pain, with the surgeries, that have not helped, in the past. But, when a new pain comes along, it is and can be very much, another challenge.....to get better and go on with my daily habits and more. I am not complaining, please don't look at it that way...just another, purging.

Thanks for listening....